HELP ME please

[TwistedSoul]

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i have a huge problem and i need someone to help me with it i hope y'll understand me because i don't have ARABIC FONT and i'm only here for one reason i've been searching for a site like this one to help me out with my problem but you see the other forums they know very well and i can't expose myself or my problem to them it's so shamefull yes i have friends but i'm ashamed to tell them too but my mother knew but she can't do anything about it please please help me and i will be out of here you wont see me anymore i'm only here because of this problem
i'm 20 years old girl i'm very good i have so many friends that loves me and wonderfull parents but i don't pray...my father is in makka for 7aj and last night he called me and he said you be a good girl and pray don't skip it and always keep praying i never listen to him i never pray i always say i will but then i don't but today i did pray although i forgot alot and repeat it the prayer for like 3 times
and i'm trying very hard but i can't because


i have addiction for masturbation and it kills me i'm so ashamed of it but i can't stp it's effecting my life and i want to fast tomorrow but i can't because of it please help how can i stop and can just wash my hand and everything without having a shower ??? because it's late and the weather is cold and i can't have a shower now because i might get sick


help